I’ve woken several mornings in a row to a distinctly fall feeling. Though the air is wet and cool as I walk to my car and head to work, there’s a crispness that seems to seep through the clouds, making way for gorgeous sun-filled afternoons. San Francisco’s notoriously dreary weather has given us a brief break, and the locals are all but giddy to show off their pasty gams and spend lazy afternoons lounging in the park or at the local beer garden. We’re rounding the final turn into my most favorite time of year, and I couldn’t be happier to usher in the new season. I even listened to jazz on my commute this morning – a telltale sign that I have fall on the brain.
Something about fall in particular fills me with a lovely combination of both calm and anticipation. It’s not the start of a new year, but I feel like this change of season in particular brings new possibilities. Maybe it’s the school connection – I’ve always enjoyed the clean slate that a new school year brings. There’s the promise of buckling down, a renewed confidence, and an excitement for what can be accomplished. There seems to be a collective push to finish out the year strong, and even though I am no longer a student, nor working in a school, the seasonal association remains. I even just purchased a new moleskin to mark the occasion – and there is nothing, nothing, more exciting than starting anew in a fresh notebook.
I feel like I have to come clean with you guys - I've been doing more shopping recently than I'd like to admit. I have allowed myself to buy things that I most likely could have done with out on multiple occasions, and have used an upcoming trip to Australia to justify several wardrobe updates. I wouldn't say that I have completely fallen into old habits; my commitment to conscientious fashion is unwavering. But I'm feeling the need to be a bit more transparent and keep myself accountable, and also to pay down my credit card.
As lame as I feel admitting it, I have become much more susceptible to trends in recent months, which has muddied my style clarity. I've sacrificed fidelity to my own blog mission in favor of chasing the latest "must have." Sure, trends are fun and exciting, but the thrill is also short-lived. Soon after buying whatever it is that caught my eye the rush of endorphins fades and I'm left feeling "needy" again - like how I crave coffee after coming down from a sugar high. This is all to say, I feel like I've really gotten away from where I want to be.
But that's why we're here - to try and grow and falter and then to regain our balance and continue forward.
So, with that in mind, I want to let you know that in upcoming posts my goal is to reconnect to and explore my lean closet mission. I'll be going over some of the new stuff I've recently purchased, but also getting creative with what I've had for a while, and thinking through the longevity of everything currently in my closet. Here's to starting fresh, and finding the balance.